But all that glitters isnt gold
When you close your eyes and imagine your wildest dreams. What is it that you seek? When the crash sets in and the release sets free, who is it that you will be. In the garden where you burry your sorrows, what will you have to hide? As for me, I am full of regret. But in the very sense of complacency it is this very stigma I find myself enraptured by. If I could envision just for the moment that when we set sail for our destination,can we depend on the fulfillment of our journey be destined by faith an not of ill fortune. But within our best wishes and best of intensions we are able to place not only our hears but our mindset toward this journey. And all the while, ill plan to forgive myself, to regret regets, and stand beside myself when I know that no one is able. The key to moving forward in this journey is about, is trusting yourself and your instincts. Though wherever life will lead you, wether it be by guided light or a sense of willingness to walk the path alone. In the midst of the chaos, find yourself, trust your judgment and you shall not be lead askew.
In my mind I imagine that the mistakes I made are much bigger than they really are. To me that doesn’t make them any less of an imperfection of mine. I’m really trying to convince myself that I’m not as absolutely terrible as I make believe. The fact that I self sabotage everything makes nothing easier for me. I’m not the nicest person, even though it’s something I’ve heard so very often. But I know one thing for sure is that I’m not selfish. It’s funny that when I decide to finally do something to benefit myself or when I don’t stand down from an argument I’m being self centered. I think it’s actually because you don’t see me do things for myself very often… That it’s surprising. In my mind, the simplicity of it would be that you give me forgiveness because you need it, because I need it, because we need it. But in all the chaos I will be hanging on a limb until I fall. And finally… Welcome to the world of simplicity and the insight to chaos.